A Breakthrough

I have decided on the next step in my life and I feel…I feel like I have my shit together. Excuse my language. It’s kind of crazy, but I see my path and I see what I want to do and I see what I need to do, I just hope that I am worthy, good enough, or whatever it is, to reach each step. I feel like, and I hope I don’t jinx myself by saying this, but I feel like things just make sense, as if somehow the stars have aligned. Granted I will have my moments of doubt, fear, and freaking out, but I can do it.

It’s crazy to think that I have come to the point in my life where I am making decisions because I know exactly what I want. I know that sounds so silly or something that should be known, but for me, it’s a clear moment of knowing exactly what it is I need and want.

Anyway, on to my good moments:

1. The realization of my next steps in life

2. Spontaneous visit from Kristen – we had a lovely chat πŸ™‚

3. A very fun and productive workshop

Well, I hope you’re all doing well. Share your good moments!

I’m off to bed, gnite! (that’s for you phimy!)

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It’s been awhile

Sorry folks, I’ve been horrible about updating. The last few weeks have been hectic and insane and I have had many, many great moments. I will do a restart, and tell you about my good moments for today, though.

1. Having my lunch from home – I really am trying hard to not purchase food outside and save up

2. Productive meeting with the kids – I felt like we were finally get a feel of each other and worked really well together

3. Jokes at the office – I have to say, our way of dealing with stress at work is to have fun and tell jokes, it’s how we survive

All in all, it’s been good. Well, no, I mean, yes, but I’ve been dealing with thoughts in my head. I’m trying to learn to be proud of who I am and what I have accomplished, it’s actually more difficult that it seems, well for me at least.

What’s the line between being confidence and being conceited? It’s funny, I can’t seem to believe it when people say “you do a good job with the kids”. I wonder if they’re just being nice, how horrible is that? If I even want to succeed in my work, I really have to believe in myself.

It’s a struggle I constantly face, and it’s kind of upsetting, that I can feel this way and allow myself to get down so much. It’s okay, I’m not looking for sympathy or anything like that, I just need an outlet to share my thoughts, my pensive πŸ™‚

Anyway, I’m off to bed.

It’s all about communication

Today has been another great day, it’s still retreat and I have to admit, almost every moment is a good moment. I just want to recap the whole day and describe all the moments of retreat because it has been awesome.

I actually look forward to retreat, it’s one of my most favorite events and it’s nice to just have fun, not be in front of a computer and see the kids have a good time. It’s just a good break from the mundane that can be work. The kids are great and are really positive, just overall a good bunch, but for reals lots of cupcakin’ and flirty flirtyness.

So I should get on with the good moments, they might be more of a shoutout, but oh well πŸ™‚

1. Having all the kids do yoga, even if they didn’t like it, haha, most of them did, but it was a nice start to how I would like to start my mornings

2. Seeing Mandy get out of her comfort zone and hang out with all the participants and just…have a great time πŸ™‚ what a great kid.

3. Awesome staff, who are really supportive. They help out, encourage the kids, are engaged, and really are just awesome. They dance, laugh, and just have a great time. πŸ™‚

Okay, I’m exhausted, hope you are all well.

Bad weather aint gonna hold me back

What a day today was. Very eventful and the first day of retreat. The kids are awesome and are so excited and are very energetic. Bad weather did no stop us, and my little bumble bees were on their toes and made the adjustments that they needed to.

I am exhausted so to the point: my good moments

1. It being the first day of retreat and the kiddos (my three kids) were so good about being on their toes and making changes to accommodate the bad weather

2. Seeing all the kids do all the activities with a lot of enthusiasm AND being supportive to everyone

3. Finally getting into my “bed” here at UCSC, ahh it’s so cozy, haha πŸ™‚

Okay, I’m off to bed!

No more sickness

Ah, I didn’t update on Thursday because I was pretty much asleep from 4pm onwards. My sickness, which I’m not sure if its sickness or allergies, really got to me on Thursday. I went home, took a nyquil and passed out until Friday 7pm.

Let me think of the good moments on Thursday, it’s a little hazy.

1. Going home early and having awesome coworkers who supported me while I was sick

2. Getting to sleep for a lot of hours, which I highly needed

3. Having an awesome roomie who made me TatterTots πŸ™‚

Friday, oh friday was very nice. Prepping for retreat and gathering all the materials and packing up my car. Making sure my kiddos felt totally prepared (Which the completely wont until they actually have their first day at retreat)

1. Ice Cream/Crepes with the kids, it was nice to get out of the office and not be so focused on work

2. Getting my car all packed up and gathering all the materials needed, once again, nice to have uber supportive coworkers to help out πŸ™‚

3. Impromptu dinner with Divya! Great conversation over some yummy homemade quesadillas.

Today is the beginning of retreat day, taking the kids to Santa Cruz and I’m finally feeling excited πŸ™‚

1. 49ers training day camp, loooooove it.

2. Driving around with my bumblebees (The kiddos) – and looking for walgreens, 7-eleven, gas stations, and dinner, good times, good laughs, and a good start

3. Feeling calm before retreat, feeling…well…prepared πŸ™‚

That’s all for now folks, I’m heading to bed.

Little Miss Sunshine

So last night, I watched a great movie: Little Miss Sunshine. What a great movie that thoroughly made me happy and had a great lesson. I want to talk about how awesome this movie is, but my sickness is making my mind very foggy. So I will have to hold off on that update.

Yesterday was a good day, though I did wake up feeling blah, but it was good. I had a rough start in the morning, with my inability to wake up, perhaps due to the lack of sleep I had that night. I also forgot my wallet at home, and realized I had forgotten it when I went to pay for my poptarts at Safeway. It’s not fun walking away from poptarts that are on sale and a tummy that wont stop grumbling.However, it was still a good day. I went back and got my wallet, bought my poptarts, along with an awesome magazine that had amazing recipes for me to try out. I will post a basic recipe I used from the magazine.

On to my good moments:

1. Leaving work “early”, which was at 5:45pm. Got home, had enough time to shop for groceries to make a wonderful dinner

2. Making a wonderful dinner: a summer veggie pasta with a bit of alfredo sauce, grapes, wine, and some crackers and cheese

3. Cuddling up and watching Little Miss Sunshine, took a nice break from thinking and worrying and stressing about work and watched a great movie all cuddled up with my trex and some vino.

It was a very chill day, hopefully the rest of today is chill πŸ™‚

Have a great day all!

UPDATE: I forgot to add the recipe! whoops!

Summer Veggie Pasta – no measurements, sorry!

Penne Pasta (for two, I think a little less than half a box is enough

One Zuccini

One Red Bell Pepper

6-7 Mushrooms

Handfull of Spinach

6-7 Cherry Tomatoes

a Small Bunch of Basil

2 Cloves of Garlic (more if you like garlic)

Black Pepper

Chili Flakes

Salt

3 Spoons of Alfredo Sauce (Add more if you want)

I cook the pasta in one pot with some salt and olive oil, and saute all the veggies in the other (not including the basil, I added that last as a garnish). Add the Alfredo sauce once the veggies are done cooking and mix together, add a little of the pasta water to the veggies. Then include the drained pasta to the mixture. And voila! Summer Veggie Pasta πŸ™‚

Bumblebees!

Oh man, I think I’m getting sick. 😦 not good before the big retreat. It’s okay, I will power through and then pass out from August 12 7pm until August 14th 2pm.

Today was a relatively good day, I’m really proud of my two kids today who worked hard and were very productive bumble bees πŸ™‚

My good moments (keeping it quick, since the nyquil is kicking in):

1. Productive day with my two bumblebees πŸ™‚ – they were awesome and got so much done!

2. Dinner with my mom – a quite unexpected surprise, glad I got to see her

3. Laughing like crazy with Nisha on my bed, our tummies never hurt so much, well may Saturday night was just as funny πŸ™‚

Gnite folks! Have a good one.