TheParijat – new blog

I have moved! Please read my blog at www.theparijat.com

I’ve decided to create my own webpage, its a work in progress, so please be nice. Thoughts would be appreciated πŸ™‚

I’m really contemplating if this is the move I want to make, I have 30 days to say yes or no. It’s funny, decisions are so tough, they feel so final, but it doesn’t have to feel that way. I’m being to dramatic, I know πŸ™‚

Anyway, please provide feedback!

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Real Quick

I have a massive update coming, with all of my thoughts about work, life, etc. But for now, I want to just share my good moments from Friday onwards!

Friday August 12:

1. Sleeping in – One should never take for granted sleeping in their bed! It was so nice to lay there and relax

2. Dinner with Amiku – We went to CPK, Borders, and Yogurtland and it was so much fun! It was really nice catching up and having a delicious meal. Plus! We got to buy books for cheap!

3. Taboo/MadGabs w/ the Talkads – Great times and in all honestly it only made it more obvious that girls are better than boys!! πŸ™‚

Saturday August 13:

1. Enjoying the sun – it’s rare when the sun shines in the Outer Richmond, and I enjoyed it!

2. Food Festival in Japantown – Delicious food and having some jokes with the coworkers!

3. Getting my deposit back – man, getting every single penny back from your deposit is GREAT!

Sunday August 14:

1. Seeing family & friends – Went home for the day and it was so good to see all my family and friends!

2. Eating – man, having that meal at 7pm was so amazing! I had to fast because I was going to taking part in the puja at our house and I only had strawberries.

3. Bathmats – Okay I know this one sounds ridiculous but I was so excited when my mom told she bought me some bathmats, they are so comfy and so soft! Now I have bath mats and match towels and a new toothbrush holder! Thanks mom!

Okay, will write my good moments for today, later on! See ya!

Mirror, mirror on the wall…

I don’t like having a mirror in my room, I feel like I am constantly watching myself. I wish…no, I don’t want to think like that. I know that I have not honestly been taking care of myself, physically, mentally, emotionally. My last few posts have been about me making promises, making good habits, and I feel like I want to and I am thinking it, but I am waiting. What exactly am I waiting for? An auspicious moment? This isn’t some kind of religious ceremony that must fall on a specific date and time, if I want to make a change, I need to do that now.

I know this is bad and I know I am not, but I am feeling fat. Let me rephrase, when I say I am feeling fat, I don’t think I am fat, I mean…I feel the sluggish-ness in my body, I feel unhealthy, I feel blah. I can’t say that I am honestly happy with my body, but I also cannot say I am unhappy with my body. I love my hips, I love my curves, I love my body, but I know that I haven’t been taking care of it, which means I cannot reach my full potential in things that I like doing. I can’t help but stare at the cottage cheese thighs, or the flabby arms, but then I know it’s a downward spiral and a black hole of never returning to light if I keep thinking like that. So I appreciate what I do have. Two functioning legs, two function arms, a body that is capable of moving, a mind that works, a body that functions.

I don’t like the mirror, but I shouldn’t hate the mirror, it is a reflection of who I am. I shouldn’t focus on the flaws, I should see where I can improve but also see where I have succeeded. It’s funny, how everything connects. Who I am as a person runs in every part of my being. I have a horrible tendency of only seeing the imperfections, but in the imperfections lies the beauty. So I won’t hate the mirror, I will stand in front of it and look at the beauties of what I see. It’s something that I will have to actively do and eventually make it the norm.

So mirror, mirror on the wall…I see me and I am proud.

Today’s good moments:

1. Buying groceries – honestly I probably spent more than I should have, but I was excited to get good food to take care of me.

2. Working out – I did some weights today and I, also, did some crunches. I have been meaning to workout but I finally did it. I pumped up my visio ball (which took forever) and started my workout

3. Gosh, this third moment is so hard to think of, it’s not like I had a bad day, but nothing stands out. Hmm, I think I will say making myself a good, healthy meal and cleaning up after myself. I know that this may sound lame, but it was actually really nice. I ate tacos and made sure to clean up the kitchen right after. Trying to form good habits!

Okay, I am off to bed now. Gnite!

No Pain, No Gain

Okay, I think the moving and unpacking finally got to me, because today I had volleyball and I slowly felt my legs losing their strength. I just tiger-balmed my left leg, and I counted all my bruises…1 million, more like 17. I have realized that I haven’t been taking care of myself, my body, my mind, my habits. So with this move, I really want to set some good habits for myself.

The first thing I have promised myself is to clean my room and bathroom at least once a week, like a good clean, broom, sweep, windex, all purpose clean it, etc. The second thing I want to make sure of is that my laptop is turned off before I go to sleep. And the last thing, I want to exercise at least 3 times a week. This does not include volleyball! So those are my goals! I definitely want to start meditating, but I’m gonna wait until I set these habits for myself.

Okay, so on to my good moments:

1. Having a productive day with the PCs – they are great, wonderful kids. They want to do so much and I am glad we had a productive day!

2. Volleyball – So I definitely have a lot to improve on, but I have been really trying to make sure I hit right, I square up, and that I can really get to the ball. I had some good hits, just wish that I could move faster!

3. Parking in my garage spot IN MY APARTMENT! Oh man, it was so nice to drive into a garage and not have to walk 6 blocks to get to my apartment.

And there you have! I am off to bed, gnite!

Unpacked

Man, unpacking is a pain, I think most people hate packing, I don’t mind it as much. I think unpacking is hard, mainly because I am extremely OCD and hate changes, great combination so I stress about where everything should go. Most likely I will rearrange the kitchen a few times before feeling satisfied. It’s a bad, or maybe good, habit that I have. Today was a great day, a very long day, but a great day. I can’t believe I have been up since 630am, anxiously waiting for 830am so that I could return the U-Haul truck back to the drop off center. Once I did that, I took a 30 minute nap before Comcast called and said they were here. Now we are setup with our TV and internet and I am happy. I then began to unpack my room. I sent a quick text over to Divya to see if she was available to come over and she was! Hurrah! I got to catch up with her, try out the burger joint around the corner from my house, and she helped me unpack the kitchen. I have to share my good moments now!

1. Unpacking my room – besides the one box I have, I have unpacked everything! I can’t wait to move my papasun in and read my books in it, all curled up!

2. Taking a moment to realize how fortunate I am to have amazing coworkers and friends – I honestly cannot thank you all for what you have done. Even you Larry! You were willing to drive from Oakland to help me!

3. Hanging out with Divya – honestly, I love this girl! We never actually hung out when we were in BU but our time in SF has really made us into good friends. She is one of the nicest, sweetest girls I know! I am so happy that she and I have become great friends! Love you!

This move, I felt a lot of positive and happy emotions. I am so thankful for everything that I have and I really appreciate all the support that I have. The stress of moving is off my mind and I feel as if I can focus more! Here we go, new start, new ways.

Gnite, world!

Life’s Path

Last night I was laying in bed looking at my room, which by the way is packed up except for my furniture. I looked around and realized that I would be moving and it threw me off, I was a little sad. I didn’t realize how much change affects me. I sit in my room, that is pretty much packed up and I can’t believe I am moving. I’m still stressed, because our move out date and move in date do not overlap. Enough about that, let me get on to my good moments!

Monday, July 25:

1. Though Michelle and I did not make it to Jamba Juice and probably had some of the worst smoothies ever, it was still pretty hilarious and awesome.

2. Got my laptop fixed and found out where I can get ram for much cheaper!

3. Taking a moment to enjoy my artwork.

Tuesday, July 26:

1. Having supportive coworkers is really nice, got super dizzy at workshop and my kiddos were super supportive and Alvin came out to help support me.

2. A good heart to heart with Becky, I am thankful to have a great work spouse like her. I have learned a lot from her and its taken me a bit to really appreciate and realize it.

3. Volleyball was good, I had some great ups and I have served over hand more often, which was nice. I know I can get consistent.

Okay, I am off to bed, Gnite!

Don’t let the door hit you on the butt

I am the ultimate klutz…I was trying to exit my bathroom while closing the door, so instead I slammed the door knob into my butt. I now have a bruise on my butt. Awesome.

I have to admit, today was a beautifully relaxed day. Allow me to share my good moments:

1. Brunch at Dosa – lovely way to start off the day, with some chai as well πŸ™‚

2. Packing part of the kitchen – felt good to get that started!

3. Dinner with Sejal – she made homemade mexican pizza, just like the CPK one, but better! Thank you!

Okay, I need to sleep, horrible headache 😦