TheParijat – new blog

I have moved! Please read my blog at www.theparijat.com

I’ve decided to create my own webpage, its a work in progress, so please be nice. Thoughts would be appreciated 🙂

I’m really contemplating if this is the move I want to make, I have 30 days to say yes or no. It’s funny, decisions are so tough, they feel so final, but it doesn’t have to feel that way. I’m being to dramatic, I know 🙂

Anyway, please provide feedback!

Best. Day. Ever.

I have this tendency to say “Best Day Ever!” anytime I have awesome food or have a great moment. I am guilty of saying this everyday for a week straight and, you know what, I like it!

Yesterday was one of those days where I just felt good. I had been up late the night before reading up for my trip this weekend (because I procrastinated, whoops) and woke up early and got to work. Finished all that I needed to and got some more reading in. I had workshop and I have to say, it went well. I have a lot of great moments in workshop and I probably should blog about them more often, but it’s so hard to find the time to.

Sometimes workshops can be tiring and draining but the youth that I work with are amazing. They have so much raw energy and when you can focus that energy in a good way, it produces amazing results. With the content that I have been reading (ways to get your youth involved in social justice issues) and the great workshop I had, I am feeling extremely inspired and motivated to do so much more for the kids! Workshop on more social justice issues, showing them ways they can get involved in their community, country, and the world, and so so so much more!

So, on to my good moments (a longer one about my thoughts of social justice and how to bring them to my work will appear later)

Thursday, Sep 15:

1. Lavonda – I have to say, I love this girl, she is a smart, wonderful, young woman. I have had the privilege of working with her my first year at MYEEP and have witnessed her transform from a young teenager to a smart young adult. She came by the office with her mom and I got to catch up and set a lunch date.

2. Workshop – MissionSF Credit Union came by to discuss topics that our CITs and Coordinators would presenting to the youth and what was amazing was that our CITs AND Coordinators blew them away with their facilitation skills. I was so proud of our CITs to take on this task and show to the MissionSF staff that they have what it takes. It was also nice to get a little shout out from them, thanking me for supporting them. It was truly a good moment and I definitely teared up in the car (I KNOW! I am cheesy) thinking of all that they have accomplished and how far they have come

3. Date Night – Achyutha and I met up in PA and had dinner at a lovely Italian Restaurant (where I devoured my food and part of his food, sorry boo!) afterwards, we headed out to get some Gelato (which we could barely finish). Upon walking the streets of PA we came across another Gelato place where a gentleman was playing his guitar and we sat down at a table and listened to him play. He played for me “Brown Eyed Girl” and it was perfect! I have to admit, I really enjoy date night, spending some quality time with the boo is nice.

Anyway, I should do work. HA! 🙂 Have a great weekend folks. I would love to hear your good moments from this week! Please do share!

Finally sleeping!

I am pretty tired so I am going to try to keep this post short, wanted to update you about the weekend and the last two days. I have been waking up in the morning, having a more relaxed started to my day is really nice. Anyway, here are my good moments:

The Weekend:

1. Seeing my family – so good to see all of my cousins on my dad’s side 🙂

2. Ran on the weekend – I am trying to make this Marathon thing happen!

3. Good food with family – always good to eat good food with family 🙂

Monday, Sept. 12:

1. Woke up at 8am – I woke up and got ready, made breakfast and got on the bus, felt so damn good to do so!

2. Productive at work – I had been feeling just a little stumped with work stuff and I felt finally good about work!

3. Running – I ran 3.5 miles, pretty far from 13.1 miles but it was a good run, very proud of myself

Tuesday, Sept 13:

1. Yoga in the AM – feels good to sweat and stretch and then end on a relaxing note

2. Good workshop – Gotta love it when the kids make your day

3. Volleyball – I have to say, we didnt win but I felt like I was playing better. Had some good ups!

Anyway, I need to sleep, sorry for this being short.

Lack of sleep

What a day, I have so many emotions running through me and I wish that I could sort them, box them up and send them away. I am having one of those days where the cottage cheese thighs and the roll over my jeans and the looming feeling of not being good enough consume me. I know it’s not right and I am so very thankful for all that I have, but sometimes I can’t help it.

This blog is a way for me to see the good in my life and to not beat myself up over whatever I am beating myself up over. I am grateful for a lot but I have one small 😦 moment. I should have called my mom, I think she’s mad at me. That’s the only reason she wouldn’t call me and I’m not exactly sure why she’s mad at me. Probably our constant battle of me being an adult and her wanting to hold on because I’m growing up too quickly for her liking (which is fair). So Mom, I’ll call you tomorrow morning! Love you.

Today was a pretty good day, so the fact that I am feeling so blah is not cool. I think it’s because I came home and felt extremely unproductive. Though I have to say that I did talk to one of my best friends from High School (we talk on a regular basis) and was extremely happy – she was in Europe and I missed her! Tracy I love you! I also made my lunch for tomorrow AND prep-ed my breakfast for tomorrow. So I am happy about that. I need to not beat myself up, I am catching myself edging close to the downward spiral of self-loathing and waves of negativity.

I have to share a quote that the previous tenant left of me (not on purpose, but I’d like to think of it as a pay it forward moment):

Remember what is most important…It is not having everything go right, it is facing whatever goes wrong. It is not being without fear, it is having the determination to go on in spite of it. Remember that every day ends and brings a new tomorrow full of exciting new things. Love what you do, do the best you can, and always remember how much you are loved. – Vickie M. Worsham

More importantly, I must know that I am loved, loved by me. Loved in that way that allows me to grow and open up to others. I must learn that I cannot change situations only how I react to them,  I am me and I am capable of anything, if I believe and achieve.

Okay, that last part was definitely cheesy and super cliched 🙂 On to my good moments!

1. Fighting temptation – I most definitely lasted in a restaurant and DID not purchase and any food. I had packed a lunch and I was not going to spend money on buying lunch! Was very proud of my strength and commitment to saving money. (Probably should not have splurged and bought a coat, tank, and jeans at H&M last week but they were TOO cute)

2. Having a good conversation with my PCs about life and things happening. Talking about high school and life and just knowing that sometimes it sucks. I really enjoy our heart to hearts that we have, they are such strong, smart women

3. Great conversations with friends – I went to Happy Hour for a coworker’s going away and it was nice to just chat and hang out! I also got a phone call from the Bestie right after and go to catch up  with her. I wish she wasn’t living so far from me that I would require purchasing a plane ticket to see her. SIGH, love you Tracy.

Okay folks, I really need to try and sleep. I am going to close my laptop and not use it to fall asleep to. I really want to wake up and go for a run.

Quick shout out to my soundtrack, thanks Coldplay for providing me with the music to motivate me to write !

Quick Update!

Quick update on my good moments!

Tuesday, Sept 6th:

1. A great workshop – It just went so well, I think it really helped to breakdown the workshop and talk about how it should go and got the kids engaged.

2. Good Volleyball game – We are trying a new system thanks to Nick and it feels a lot better because we know what we are suppose to do and its more clear, plus I had some great ups!

3. A new chair –  Work was giving away a chair and I claimed it, a nice reading chair for the apartment ftw! 🙂

Okay, back to work!

Friends

Lots of hanging out with friends happened this weekend which was really nice! So let’s start with good moments from Friday until today!

Friday, Sept. 2nd:

1. A good heart-to-heart with Becky – I like that I can have some girl time with her and talk to her about everything that is going on with my life. It’s really nice

2. Nishant is in town – my really good friend from BU was in town and I got to see him!

3. Seeing Anjali – aahhh I miss this girl, terribly and it was so nice seeing her!

Saturday, Sept 3rd:

1. Scuba Diving – so Achyutha and I got these Groupons for beginners Scuba Diving and it was AWESOME. It is something that I would like to save up for and do! A great experience, terrifying, but great.

2. Making lunch – I was very adamant about not eating out so I made some burritos for the boo and I, it was a very stereotypical moment: he was watching football and I was cooking for him. I just want to state, next time, you cook for me 🙂

3. Celebrating Donnie’s birthday – Happy Birthday kid, I hope you had a fantastic day 🙂

Sunday, Sept 4th:

1. Brunch with the boys – a lovely chai and dosa in the morning and good company 🙂

2. Dinner with my parents – thai food and the rentals, good times!

3. Catch up time with Sandeep & Karishma – good times spending it with the two!

Monday, Sept 5th:

1. A nice nap in the afternoon – I didn’t mean to this but it felt good

2. Making lunch – I am on a roll! I refuse to buy lunch for the next 4 days!

3. Dinner with Amitt & co – A lovely dinner and conversation with Amitt, Anand, Shalin, and Vivek! Good times!

And now, I am off to bed! Gnite folks!

Run, Pari. Run!

I have started running again! This girl WILL run and complete a half marathon! Granted I was doing so well in April and May and have fallen back a bit, but I will be back! By Friday I should be back to my 4 mile run and then next week get to 6. I want to fit in a long run at some point this weekend. Not sure when that will happen.

For those of you that do not like to run and have thought “it would be nice to run”, I’m telling you, it is possible to be a “runner”. The hardest part about running…is just doing it. Getting up and starting down the block out of your place. You are in your room, your heater is on, you’re in your bed. Why would you want to get out? BECAUSE! It’s actually really nice when you get a good pace going. The only time it sucks, in all honesty, is up a damn hill. That’s when I promise myself I will get to walk if I make it up the hill.

While in Yosemite, I hit my foot against the grill (which hilarious enough, Achyutha did the last time we went camping) and I think I hit a vein and it hurts to put shoes on. So running has been a bit difficult, but it doesn’t hurt to walk or run, just when anything touches it, i.e. my damn shoes. It’s a bit swollen and bruised 😦

Don’t fret folks, I am a champ, I will get through this. I will try my hardest not to be dramatic about it! Okay, on to my good moments! (PS – I am working on my Yosemite post, that will hopefully go up by Friday!)

Today:

1. Getting my Farm Fresh to You box and eating an orange and getting excited over squash! I wasn’t sure if I wanted the box but I decided to go with it. I was determined to be good about using the vegetables, after all, I am trying to be a locavore!

2. Running – I am not at my usual pace or distance, but I am getting there, I feel it coming back! It was really nice and I have a new hill to conquer, running around George Washington High School in the outer richmond, those hills are a…well you know what they are!

3. Cooking at home! I have been SO SO SO good about cooking food and bringing a lunch! Tonight I used the squash and tomato from the FFTY box and made some Quinoa kichadi (unfortunately my grains are not from a 100-150 mile radius of me) and have some for leftovers!

Well folks, I am off to bed! Gnite! Oh, I would love to hear your good moments!